Tuesday, October 20, 2015


Hey kids.

Just some more update things.

I've been doing a lot of special effects makeup stuff lately so that's fun. I've missed working with my hands. The only problem is that it's so expensive :ccc But anyway, enough of that. I'm teaching myself and watching YouTube videos, mostly. There are a lot of replications out there which makes it hard to try to be creative.. but I'm doing it anyway. It's a lot of fun. I wish I could do it as a job, honestly, but I think it would take a long time before that happens.

School is going okay, I guess. I mean, I'm probably failing my classes, but I don't really know. I don't really care anymore. This numbness inside me is just consuming everything. This apathy is awful. I can't write music anymore. I think I can do sfx because you don't have to be super inspired to do it; you can just take a picture of a wound and recreate it. It doesn't have to have a deeper meaning.

Anyway, that's kinda what's going on right now.

Check out my sfx photos on instagram @ sparksinsomniac

Sunday, August 9, 2015


Hey guys.

I haven't been here in a while, and I'm sorry for that. The last time I posted on here was... what? 2013? Yeah, I'm not the same person that I was then.

I have a boyfriend now, and we've been dating since mid-April of 2014. His name is Alex and he's the best thing that ever happened to me. I've never been in a healthier relationship. We've been dating for about a year and a few months and we've never had a single fight. He's kind, he's understanding, and we're super silly with each other, which I think is what keeps things fun. Let's be honest, I'll probably end up marrying this guy. For those of you who watch Friends, he's my lobster. c:

I have three jobs on top of being a college student. I'm a hostess, I work in a lab for the university, and I'm a freelance photographer/artist. I'm also double-majoring in Psychology and Ag Science--it's a wonder I'm not busier. I live in a house with Alex and three other people: Katie, my bff; Linsa, who is probably my bff but with whom I've been having problems lately; and Trevor, who used to be just Alex's friend but who is now friends with everyone in our house. If that makes any sense. It's pretty great, minus Linsa problems. You'll probably hear more on that later but for now I'll let it lie. Also Katie is getting married and I'm her MOH so that's exciting.

Things have been a little hard lately. I'm at the heaviest I've ever been and my self-esteem is not very forgiving. I haven't cut or starved myself in a very long time and I'm pretty proud of that. Of course I want to cut a lot of the time, but nobody said it was going to be easy.

So yeah, that's my life right now. Hope everyone's doing well.